“Life should not be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside in a cloud of smoke, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming "Wow! What a ride!” – Hunter S. Thompson
Not 100% sure this was the most appropriate quote for how I'm feeling today, but it's always been one of my favourites.
I've always felt life was short. And life was always awesome.
When I was young I was always on the edge, and I always felt it meant I was going to pull off the Hunter S. Thomson plan. You see, if I'm being honest with myself I don't think I've ever really visualized myself as an old man.
I've always enjoyed pushing the agenda/boundary, and I've certainly always wanted to get the most out of whatever experience I have found myself entertaining. But I think it's always meant that perhaps I may go out in a blaze of glory somehow. Or at least skid in sideways in a cloud of smoke thoroughly used up.
But not today.
Today I am taking in my third Recliner Session, and I'll be honest I really love this experience. It's not a four coupon ride down at the Stampede but it is my bi-weekly moment where I feel I am making progress on dealing with the cancer. I am 'all in' with the belief that Nivolumab is working and that each visit is another step to better.
Today is a bright sunshiney day, the walk up the hill to the Tom Baker was glorious and I had a lovely song in my head as I walked up to my session.
The song didn't really fit the theme but it has always made me smile - Care for You by Michael Bernard Fitzgerald. Maybe the song snuck in because we were texting just as I was getting out of the car prior to this lovely walk.
Doesn't matter why, it was in my mind and it made me smile, the whole day is making me smile.
AND I'M HOOKING UP TO AN IV FOR AN HOUR GETTING SERIOUS DRUGS PUMPED INTO MY BODY.
How's for a mind fuck?
And even weirder - I visualize myself as an old man now.
I'm a bald handsome.
Asked Nurse Amanda to take my bi-weekly recliner photo...she cracked me up with a surprise selfie. Gotta say every Nurse in this department is awesome. Probably another reason why I am enjoying my visits.